my final decision....

aq bahagia dlm derita..keputusan yg diwt untuk kiter ber3..aq dia n kamu..memg aq mseh sygkn kamu tapi klo kamu xditakdirkn untukku dn aq bkn milikmu..dn terimalah kenyataan bahawa Allah dh tentukan dia lah jodohmu..jgn sesekali melawan tajdirnyer..ketahuilah Allah sudah menentukan garis2 hidup untuk setiap makhluk ciptaan nyer...aq relakan ko pergi biarpon hati ini terseksa menanggung rndu terhadap drimu..aq doakn ko bhgua n mampu lupekan aq wt selama2 nyer..aq xsggup dihina di cerca oleh dier..yer mmg aq xwt sume tuh..tp smpei bile aq nk biarkn die terus menghina aq?let me go syang....biarlh aq beri cinta n hati ini pd org yg layak menerima nyer..

semalam...

semalam iaitu tanggal 8 may, im supposed to go to kelantan..to see him again..maybe for the last time but there's no lucky on that day, the ticket was sold out, so i need to cancel my journey .. n i was stayed at budget hotel at pudu alone..it was a midnite..can u imagine how, me? a gurl stayed at there alone...hmmm..but thank god becoz the god save me from my ex. it is becoz my ex wanted to borrow my money juz wanna pay for his summons..then i think, y dun he ask from his wife? im wondering, y must u ask me to pay ur summons?then i realize mayb its true what my frends said bout him..mayb he wanna with me juz becoz of money..so sad..when i was in that hotel, im on9 through ym..then the foreigner was approached himself to me..then after a few minutes we were chat..he ask me to go out on that time..ok, i agreed becoz he said wanna bring me to take the dinner, but he juz accompany me to took the dinner, he refused to eat..im so blushing when he look at we while im ate the meal..im always keep asking him y do u look at me..i tried to cover my face but he still looked at me..i was think that he is same with my ex foreigner but he totally different.he never forced me to do smthg that i don't like, he respected my privacy, he is very caring n loving. In a short, he is very gentleman..i was surprised it..at the last nites when i was with him, i keep thinking about him,n i feel like fall in luv with him..but i cant have the feeling..its too bad for me..hmmm...

aq mengenali beliau bermula dari...

cerita ini mengisahkan aq, dia,perempuan tersebut and centa kami.Aq mengenali sidia selepas sja mama meninggal dunia..klo dulu..mama ibarat ibarat kekasihku..dimana ader mama disitu ader aq..pendek ceter cm koala ngan ank dyer..sentiasa melekat...namun tanggal 23 Julai 2007 mama telah pon kembali ke Rahmatullah..aq xmmpu nk berkata aper..yg mampu terlintas difikiran, Allah lebey sygkan beliau. Kehilangan mama..adalah stu kehilangan yg amt besar bg aq..dimana aq decide aq nk benti stdy, xnk idup lg n sbgainyer..stlah 2 bln arwah mama pergi, muncullah sorg makhluk Allah ni , mizkol2 no aq nih..n minx nk knal..pd mulanyer..aq anggp dyer sbgai kawan..xkesah la pon kn nk kwn jer. Pd satu malam, makhluk Allah ni pon kol aq n propose me to be his gf..dgn mamai nyer aq pon berkata yer..ok..fine..pd mulanya aq pkir nk men2 jer..xmo series cm skrang nih.ini kerna kami sering bergaduh hya disebbkn cemburu buta beliau. aq pernah terpikir bhw hubungan kami xkn bertahan lama..pling lma sebuln tp jangkaan ku sumenyer salah berlaka. Ckop 5 bln kami menjalinkn hbgn sbg pokwe n mokwe..perasaan ku bertamabah sbyk 50% terhadapnyer.(siap ader kira2 lg).sejak itu aq pon mula menyimpan perasaan yg mendalam terhadapnyer..tp still xmempunyai kepercayaan yg penuh terhadapnyer coz dyer pon xcyer kt aq.dr 8 bln berganjak ke 2 thn. dlm masa 2 thn tuh, aq da set yg dyer adlh org yg bakal jd laki aq nant..siyes aq xpndg rupa, harta mahupon luaran..yg aq pndg cume pangai dyer jer.dlm msa yg 2 thn tuh juge, sikap beliau berubah serta merta, drpd sorg yg mementingkn awekz bertukar mementingkn kawan. Selang beberapa bulan, beliau hilang tanpa berita.aq assume yg tepon dyer rosak.xper..aq sabar lg. untill 1 day, mmber aq tya sokln yg mencurigakn aq "ko percaya ke tepon dyer rosak?" terus terdetik ati aq untuk kol dyer.ok, fine 1st time aq kol laki angkt tp bkn dyer, laki tuh ley ckp polis bukit aman, jauh benor no. kltn tuh terbang ke bkit aman. bdak kmpg ko ley tpu..ngn aq jgn harap.2nd time aq kol lg..tp pmpn yg jawab, lalu aq tya mne tuan nye no ni, pmpn tuh xnk jwb..dyer ley ckp " nnt awk akn tau cerite sbnr"..aq da xsedp ati da time tuh..aq sabar lg sehingga msuk bln ke 3 dyer menghilang, tetibe hamba Allah ni kol aq lik minx aq kol dyer lik (mlm pekse ni kol aq), ats budi bicara aq pon kol, then luruh jntung aq bile mendgr yg dyer kne tgkp bsah ngn pmpn tuh. fine, dye bg reasons yg dyer kne perangkap.xper aq biar lg.selang beberapa bulan kemudian, pmpn ni serang aq tetibe. mrh2 aq coz kco pkwe dyer..aq cm heran..pkwe sape sbnrnyer nih? aq ke ko?xper aq lynkn pmpn ni jer,strusnyer aq tya hamba Allah ni blik, aper yg jd sbnrnye, lastly dyer ckp pmpn tuh pregnant..aq tya ank sape..hamba Allah ni xnk ngaku..yelh laki mna nk ngaku klo da puas men, pastuh aq ckp klo btol ank tuh bkn ank ko, pg wt ujian DNA, tp dye takut..nmpk sgt la kn ank ko. 3rd time aq tya dyer lg,n finally dyer ngaku yer ituh ank dyer.ok, aq terima ngn redha n aq swoh dyer bertggungjwb ngn kwen ngn pmpn tuh..tp dyer xnk ngn alasan nk kwen ngn aq but aq pkse dyer juge.blom smpt smpei msa dyer nk kwen, kndungn pmpn tuh gugur, dgn gumbiranyer hamba Allah ni cerita kt aq...dgn harapn dyer xyh kawen ngn pmpn tuh.sorry ah aq xkn biarkn ko lepas tggungjwb ko kt pmpn tuh, pndei wt pndei tggung.fine, skang dyer da pon kawen..tp mslh nyer skang..aq still terikat ngn dyer coz dyer xnk lepaskn aq..byk kali aq minx ptos tp dyer still xnk ngn hrpn aq kne jd bni no.2 dyer..pale otak dyer..ko aq ni kejam sgt ker cm pmpn tuh nk rmpas hak org?aper yg aq nk ckpmkt cni..aq terkilan ngn hamba Allah ni, aq xpuas ati ngn pmpn ni coz ckp aq permpas..sape rmps sape?, aq terseksa coz dyer xnk lepaskn aq..sedey sgt..aq nk gak idup seperti pmpn len..hmm..org luar mayb think that aq yg slh dlm hal ni, siyes aq xkol dyer pon, laki dyer yg cari aq, pastuh pmpn tuh ckp aq yg cri laki dyer..aper slh aq..nape xtya laki sndri..aq cume nk bebas dr kongkongan hamba Allah ni...ntahla..

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Assalamualaikum...n slmt sejahtera...blog ini diwujudkn hanya bertujuan untuk meluahkn isi hati disamping berkongsi pendapat mengenai sesuatu perkara yg akan dibincangkn..mengikut arus semasa...(esp jalan kehidupan ku sbgai manusia biasa_...sebagai manusia biasa, xlepas drpd kesilapan,,jika dlm blog ni aq ader terkasar bhs n mengguris perasaan orang..aq minx maaf awl2...sesungguhnyer yg baik dtg drpd Allah dn yg bruk dtg drpd aq...let view my stories k..i allow u all to give ur open response on what i will write in this blog..tq..